Papa

You say you love me

But You leave me by the fire

Is it not to burn me papa?

You say you care

But you leave me under the rain

Won't i catch a cold papa?

You said you will guide me

But how do these thoughts that destroy come in

Won't i err papa?

You said you will protect me

But you saw when the destroyer munched half of my life

Is that not wicked papa?

You said you will be with me

But i only see my reflection on these waters

How do i believe papa?

You said It is finished

But questions still exist

What finished papa?

You said i am a success

But failure laughs me to scorn daily

Do you now lie papa?

You said am free

But chains of addictions seem to torment me

Am confused papa

You said am a king

But i toil like a slave and earn like i worked for free

Am on my knees papa

You said am a victor

But how many times must i lose to prove victory

I cry papa

Papa am being real to you

I don't want to confess

What my heart questions

Can't faith be a reality?

What will it take papa?

What will it take for me to live?

Papa stares

With tears He stares

Coming down the stairs

To answer your scariest fears

But what a surprise

He looks exactly like you

After moments of staring

He speaks

I am indeed a father

Your papa

That's why i won't answer your questions

Answers will confuse your mind

But love will perfect understanding

Why do you still breathe?

Why did the fire not burn you?

Why did you not catch a cold and die?

Why did you not err to a point of no forgiveness?

Why did the destroyer not swallow the other half of your life?

Was it your reflection you saw or you saw me in the waters?

Questions did not finish,but wrong answers finished to leave me as the only answer to "questions".

Yea,failure laughs at you for being a success

Have you attempted to walk out of those broken chains?

Why do you work for what is free?

Who said you lost?what is the yardstick?

Son,let your heart do the confessing

For faith and trust answers every question

One truth makes faith a reality

A clause that gives faith hope

I love you

So go on and live

Because I love you.